Winter Light

In the waning minutes of Pastor Tomas Ericsson’s noon service, the chapel feels almost empty, with only a few souls lingering in the pews: Jonas Persson, his pregnant wife Karin, and Tomas’s former lover Märta, who arrives carrying unspoken tension. The town seems hushed, as if listening for something that might never come. Tomas, already weakened by a cold, steels himself for a third service later in the day in a different town, while Jonas and Karin linger to share their troubles. Jonas speaks curtly about his morose mood after hearing the unsettling news that China is developing an atomic bomb, a revelation that darkens the horizon of his faith and hope. Tomas offers a brief, careful word of counsel and asks the couple to return after they’ve gotten Karin home, attempting to maintain his professional composure even as his own sense of purpose frays at the edges.

No sooner have the Perssons left than Märta, the substitute teacher and Tomas’s confidante-turned-confidant, enters with quiet warmth. She tries to comfort him, asking if he has read the letter she wrote—an invitation to understand, or perhaps to justify, the distance that has grown between them. Tomas admits that he has not read the letter and confesses a troubled memory: his perceived failure to help Jonas, and a deeper, all-encompassing doubt about whether he has any remaining hope to offer. Märta declares her love, but closely follows with the claim that she believes Tomas does not love her in return. She exits, and Tomas reads the letter alone, the words biting as they recount a personal wound.

In the letter, Märta recounts Tomas’s neglect of her, juxtaposing her own disfigurement—a rash that turned her body against her own reflection—with the feeling that neither his faith nor his prayers did anything to heal her. She writes of a family warmth that once existed without religion and expresses bewilderment at Tomas’s indifference toward Jesus. The pages make him confront a past where his own sense of divine purpose was entangled with fear, pride, and the temptation to explain away human cruelty by denying God. After finishing the letter, Tomas falls asleep, and when he awakens, Jonas has returned and is waiting. He tries to offer counsel again, but the conversation dissolves into a stark confession: he, too, has no faith left. He confesses that his faith was a vanity—an idea that God loved humanity, but Tomas loved himself most of all. He recounts a memory from Lisbon, where he served during the Spanish Civil War, acknowledging that he could not reconcile the image of a loving God with the atrocities he witnessed; in the end, he chose to deny God rather than search for an explanation for human cruelty. Jonas leaves with a heavier sense of loss, and Tomas stands before a crucifix, declaring that by denying God, he has finally found freedom.

The moment is punctuated by Märta’s return, overjoyed by Tomas’s implied release from faith, as the widow Magdalena unexpectedly appears and informs them that Jonas has committed suicide with a rifle. Tomas drives, alone, to the scene, and with a restrained, almost ceremonial calm, helps the police cover Jonas’s body with a tarp. Märta arrives on foot and follows Tomas to her home, where she invites him in to rest and take medicine for his cold. Inside Märta’s classroom, attached to the house, Tomas confronts her with a harsh truth: his anger toward her is born of the gossip and his fatigue with the emotional weight she carries. He asserts that she could not compare to his late wife, the woman he truly loved, a claim that shocks Märta but does not deter her from continuing to care for him. She then agrees to accompany him back to the Perssons’ home, where Karin, upon hearing the news of Jonas’s death, collapses with the fear of how she and their children will endure. Tomas offers only a perfunctory pledge to help and then leaves.

Later that afternoon, Tomas arrives at the second church for the three o’clock service, which remains a ghost town except for Algot, the handicapped sexton, and Fredrik, the organist. In the vestry, Algot presses Tomas on the Passion, pondering why such emphasis is placed on Jesus’s physical suffering, which was brief compared to the betrayals Jesus faced from his closest followers and, perhaps more pointedly, from God’s silence on the cross. Algot wonders aloud, “Wasn’t God’s silence worse?” Tomas listens in thoughtful stillness, then agrees that the silence indeed resonates more deeply than the wounds. Fredrik suggests Märta should leave town, pursue a life free of rumor, but she resolves to remain and to begin praying. The two men—Algot and Fredrik—are left to wonder whether a service should still be held if no one shows up, while Tomas, with a quiet resolve, decides to proceed. The bells toll, the atmosphere thick with expectation and doubt, and Tomas begins the service with a recitation of the Sanctus:

Holy Holy Holy, Lord God Almighty; heaven and earth are full of your glory.

The ritual returns to a stark, solemn rhythm, and the scene closes on the image of a pastor who, in his own reckoning, has finally chosen to face the emptiness rather than pretend it isn’t there, inviting whatever truth may come in the echo of church bells and the weight of a town’s unanswered questions.

Last Updated: October 03, 2025 at 06:46